I’m so worried I’m going to die.

(TMI and/or whiney rants under the cut)

Well, for starters my period came early for the second time. I mean, the first time it did, I was like, “Maybe it’s the heat”, because it happened in Rio. But now.. I’m worried there’s something awfully wrong with me.

Then, what’s even worse is how my anxiety and mood swings are getting worse. Yesterday I spent more than an hour crying and worrying and I don’t even know why, and lately I don’t even feel like doing anything and I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I overreact with the tiniest things and I just lose it….. and it could be PMS, but then I never got bad PMS, so I find it weird.

And then I’m not even sleeping much at all, it takes me FOREVER to go to sleep and I always wake up insanely early, no matter how late I went to bed the previous night.

I’ve been going to therapy since mid-December and yet I’m only getting worse.

And then I google all my sypmtoms and it only makes everything worse because I’m such a hypocondriac.

And I don’t even know what to do because I have no one to talk to (at least no one that I feel comfortable with sharing this, or anything remotely relevant about my life).

@2 months ago
#personal #tmi