Last night I dreamed that David Fisher and an older Dave Karofsky were on a date.
Strangely enough, that would kind of work.
Ok, so I really thought I was going to HATE this episode.
And I kind of did (I mean, Dinosaur??? Love You Like a Love Song?? What Makes You Beautiful? REALLY?????????)…. but in some ways, it left me with a sort of blah mix of feelings.
Mostly future feelings.
I don’t know, the way Rachel talked about not getting into NYADA and everything.. then Big Girls Don’t Cry.. it only made me even more depressed about the fact that I’m deadly scared of my future and have no idea of what to do with my life and am pursuing a career path that I have frankly NO IDEA if it’s right for me or not.
I guess I kind of related to the whole being lost thing, and I’ve finished high school last year so I really shouldn’t feel that way, but I do, and I don’t know how to change it and everyday I try to convince myself that everything will be alright and yet, I keep stressing about my future all the time and I can’t even sleep properly and I feel this weird thing at the pit of my stomach all the time and I don’t remember the last time I could just stop worrying and smile.
And I know the point of this whole thing was just enjoy the moment and all, but instead I fail at trying to remember the last time I really enjoyed anything at all.
I wish I could either go back when I was 5 and didn’t have to make a decision that would affect the rest of my life, or fast forward to when I’m 30 and this decision has been made. god the quinn/joe storyline is so STUPID!
(this would be under a read more but really, if this offends you you should probably get yourself checked…)
That awkward moment when a Glee episode starts getting good, gets to a really good point and then goes back to being really, really bad…